I've been feeling pretty low as of late. There's a sense of numbness in everything, and whatever laughter that comes just fades quickly and is so temporary. It's difficult to crack a smile unless my mind is diverted, and even that doesn't happen too often. My movements are slow and sluggish, every limb protesting against active movement so contrasting with my emotions. Every deep breath I take ends with a sigh, and my tears threaten to fall every time I close my eyes. I feel exhausted, but every time I feel like giving in my reluctance holds and I just can't let go.

I don't need a hug, I just need the inner strength to give a shrug and say to hell with it all.